Tat tvam asi

'You cannot help anyone, you can only serve' - Swami Vivekananda

'The Vedas are without beginning or end. This may seem absurd to you. How can a book have no beginning or end? But the vedas are a collection over ages, the accumulated treasury of philosophical knowledge and laws. The Vedas they teach us that Creation is without beginning or end. Science is said to have proved that the sum total of all cosmic energy is always the same. Then if there was a time that nothing ever existed, where was all this manifested energy? Some say it was in a potential form in God. In that case God is sometimes potential and sometimes kinetic, which would make Him mutable. Everything mutable is a compound, and everything compound must undergo that change which is called destruction. So God would die, which is absurd. Therefore there was never a time when there was no creation.'

- Swami Vivekananda

As I peripherally tried to challenge my thoughts on science...and its principal need...the Alchemist comes to mind...always...purifying purifying, even until he finds the "essence" - that which is ever the indivisibility and is therefore transformative! And then these words came with electrifying clarity from the book I read...Swami Vivekanandas words...they clarified even those doubts that were only vaguely cognizant.

'Perfection is absolute, and the absolute cannot be two or three. It cannot have any qualities. It cannot be an individual. So when a soul becomes perfect and absolute it becomes the Brahman, and it would only recall the Lord as the perfection, the reality, of its own nature and existence, the existence absolute, the knowledge absolute, the bliss absolute.

Therefore to gain this universal individuality, this miserable little prison-individuality must go. Then alone can death cease when I am alone with life, then alone can misery cease when I am with Happiness itself, then alone can all errors cease when I am with Knowledge alone, and this is the necessary scientific conclusion. Science has proved to me that physical individuality is a delusion. That really my body is one little continuously changing body in an unbroken ocean of matter, and Adviata (unity) is the necessary conclusion with my other counterpart, soul.

Science is nothing but the finding of the unity. As soon as it reaches this perfect unity, it would stop from further progress, because its goal would be reached. Thus Chemistry would not progress further, if the one element out of which all others could be made is discovered. Physics would stop if it discovered the one energy of which all others are but manifestations. Biology would stop if the essence of life itself from which all can be gifted life is discovered. And the science of religion would discover the Prathista...the One that is the basis for all! One who is the ONLY soul of which all other souls are but delusive manifestations!'

(self's addition is italicized)

"Names are not explanations."

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As I asked of the people I know, why is there no one religion that becomes it all? Why wasn't there one Messiah? Why isn't the unity apparent? And they unable to answer looked away - Thus came the answers...from Vivekananda.

"Unity in variety is the plan of nature. The Hindus have discovered that the absolute can only be realized, or thought of, or stated, through the relative, and the images, crosses, crescents, are so many symbols - so many pegs to hang the spiritual ideas on."

"Every religion is only evolving God out of the material man, and the same God is the inspirer of all of them. Why then are there so many contradictions? They are only apparent, says the Hindu. The contradictions come from the same truth adapting itself to varying circumstance of different natures. It is the same light coming through glasses of different colors. And these little variations are necessary for adaptation. But in the heart of everything the same truth reigns."

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Everything here is beautous and sound...and yet the Vedantic claims nought to creation. He says 'I don't know'. He claims the spiritual evolution is evident...but doesn't clarify it enough to slake my thirst.

It has been told since time immemorial that the plan of the universe is a plan in and of itself and it reveals itself to us only as we seek its original truth! For before that we don't claim to know why we are...we only ask what we are and by way of finding it - discover why we are.

All I do is seek to see this knowledge of 'why' reflected somewhere, soon. And I know what I am. I now only seek to REALIZE it and BE it.

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Coming back to the nature of the conciousness...its Absolute untouchable, unchangeable Pristiness.

I understand it now! Infact, I think the dream I had last night, where I was updating the blog with this entry, pounded it in. It was so revealing, for in this 'dream', I was being taught It. And what is more - I remember what It taught me!!

It is OFCOURSE the way it must be...if we are what we are, all the time that we are, then ofcourse when we are asked to understand or explain ourselves...we choose to explain ourselves in the only way possible...explain the Is to the Is VIA the Is. How futile it sounds compared to the thought of just BEING the Is. If we ONLY realize this one FACT! How much easier it becomes to see why the WORLD and the UNIVERSE AT LARGE - is JUST AN ILLUSION! An ILLUSION created to SATISFY OUR MOST ELEMENTARY BUT ALSO MOST PARAMOUNT QUERY!

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I am going to use Ark's example to explain to myself what I now know:

As the conciousness projects itself on the screen of itself as what it can be, thus only then do we understand that the 'light' that projects ourselves onto ourselves is nought but Ourself aka the Conciousness and it takes ONLY the form of Love - to EXPLAIN itself, for Love is the ONLY Omni-pervasive, Omni-present, Omni-potent and Omni-scient form that it CAN take. And this beautiful form is accessible to us only as we experience that which love is NOT.

That which That is not. Neti Neti. Not this, Not this.

For the nature of THAT/Is is everything and therefore unfathomable and forever unperturbed, unless it is expressed as LOVE - becoz We PERCIEVE it ONLY then!!!

This explains Creative-desire, experiential desire AND the desire to merge!

The Creative Desire emerges when bits of the Conciousness want to experience itself...thus, 'Thoughts' or any of the VARIOUS ways to experience 'That', are made available. In the process of self-discovery, the thoughts try to define themselves via probitive inquiry and coarser emotions that which identify It and that which It is not - Experiential Desires. And thus when we as conciousness' regain an understanding of what we ARE - we crave to BECOME THAT AGAIN - Suffusive Desire. We wish to be it completely and all that time!

For, all we experience is LOVE LOVE LOVE! And we forever become that which is experienced!!!

Oh!

So, YES! This desire is self-initiating - that as we want to experience ourselves we become the light that projects from the projector (which is also us) onto the screen (ALSO us) to understand what we were in the first place!!!

The Light is the LOVE! And once the Image realizes this...the image itself, the projector, the screen and the light BECOME it ALL!

I am not the best writer or teacher - but I exposit for my benefit only - so it does no harm to be completely NEBULOUS!