Adrift

Show me love and I'll show you what I can do with it.

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Two things, for reference...

"We listen for what we expect and tune out the rest. It is the same with seeing. Is it the same with other senses? Do we feel only what we expect and all the rest we tune out? Is it then possible to sink so low, to tune out our senses so completely that we become aware of something else?"

"We create problems so we can fight. If fighting wasn't a way to learn we wouldn't need it."

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W. I know you already, and yet I am more eager to know you than I have ever been with anyone else. I know with you I can be above jealousy and disgust. And other emotions.
I know I can know you as the person who initiates the flow of unconditional love.
I like you already...preconditions are met.

Sometimes I am afraid. I decieve...ALWAYS I am afraid. I fear that it won't be everything I have been imagining, or told it will be, somehow it will fall short. I am afraid to be shot of this one thing that I have long looked for. I am afraid of relearning this treasure. It is unduly painful. The separation would be agony unlike any. And to start over would mean I would have to search for you all over again. And I cannot be sure I won't miss you next time.

So, I am trying not to be afraid with you. From you, all of the time, I feel no reason to be afraid. Eventhough, there are times when parts of me worry about what I am going to be able to give to you...you, of many strengths and I of few. Because I know very little of you as you are now, I am racked with pain and fleeting jabs of jealousy, these will pass, I am sure. With ignorance comes emotion. I am ignorant yet.

I am restless to know you. To be deprived this one thing I have wanted, it seems almost for an eternity, endlessly, is holding me back. I am sure you need me with such force for some purpose. I will assure you. I will be whatever you tell me to be. I will be yours if that is what is required to stop the torrent of silly emotions that are confused with love, and be the real thing with you.

If you are to know this, then I am to tell you these things.

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Evolution was made clear today. Atleast as we know it on Earth.
It was the birth of a thought on this platform...from its essences came greater and greater leaps into the realm of knowledge. And as thoughts perfected themselves, it became a platform for experiencing cardinal knowledge as well as the antithesis of higher enlightenment.
For if we are to know what we are...we must sometimes/always know what we are not.

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The mark of your ignorance is the depth of your belief in injustice and tragedy. What the caterpillar calls the end of the world the master calls a butterfly.